I wrote a blog post, decided it was too jumbled and even a little harsh, so I deleted it. My mother would be proud. I'll keep it simple. Life is great. For the moment. But that's how life is. We had a beautiful double rainbow here the other day, and I even had a cute little quote to go along with my picture that is on facebook. "You can't have a rainbow without a little bit of rain." Sometimes bad things happen, and life gets hard. And that is OKAY. I think we live in a society where it's socially unacceptable for people to share their problems. But sometimes that's what you need. Sometimes all you need is to get them out there. And most of the time, you feel better! Last year was hard. I hit an all time low in my life, and I was majorly depressed. And I didn't talk about it to very many people. Because that's what we do. We put on a smile and pretend like everything is okay when we are falling apart on the inside. I had days where I was done. I was physically sick. I hated my job, and I didn't know why I was even bothering. I didn't think I could make a difference. I missed my family. I didn't know why I moved so far away from people who love me. But I learned that in order for our situations to change, WE have to make a change in ourselves. I made the decision that I was going to be happy. I was going to choose to be positive. I was going to look for the good in the situation. If I couldn't change something, I would find a way to make it bearable, and sometimes even fun. I took myself out of Vegas for a bit during the summer, I saw my family, I switched grade levels. I DID something. And sometimes that's all it takes. I'm not saying that that will fix all of your problems, but it can't hurt.
Not sure why I went there, but it happened. I hope it helped someone. My life is pretty fantastic right now though. I love my job, I love my class, I have the best team ever, and I have a month long break coming up! (Who said year round schools were bad? If you're single, they kind of seem like the best thing ever!) My baby brother is a COLLEGE STUDENT!!! Where the heck did the time go?? I remember when that kid was born! And now he's all on his own! I've got a trip planned to Rexburg in two weeks to see family, and then I'm going to Disneyland with Kirsten. And I get to go to PALI with our 5th graders who were once my very first class of 3rd graders. They have a special place in my heart! I have some amazing friends who I would be lost without. I got a new calling at church where I format the ward bulletin, and I LOVE it! It's even better than my first "real" calling of Relief Society Greeter my first semester of college. Yup. I'm pretty sure they made that calling up. But it was pretty great. Hopefully I didn't just jinx it. But I type a lot faster than I can write in my journal. So here it is. My life in a nutshell. I hope you have a great day, and when life gets hard, remember that you can't have a rainbow without a little bit of rain.
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